cancer

Happiness aint a permanent thing.

Tbh, day by day I'm feeling better in healing environment but for one sec, theres always someone, who destroy it. who could stir up my inner peace. And I'm back at the starting point which "I'm a failure miserable ugly woman" phase. No matter how many effort I spent, I end up gaining the same amount of happiness, the same cycle occur. I wonder... but people are cancerous thing. they are cancer. cancer are bad & should be thrown out...

cut off the cancer might be hard & risky but it can save the patient. 

In order to gain something, i think we need to lose something. thats the rational thinking...