the upcoming Ramadhan

Bismillahirahmanirrahim
(Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani)

Assalamualaikum wbt.

sedar tak sedar,ramadhan dah menghampiri kita semua.sebelum menyambut kedatangan Ramadhan,apa kata kita cuba indahkan peribadi,elokkan yang buruk,betulkan yang salah dan berusaha membuang segala tabiat-tabiat buruk.kalau sebelum ni tak tutup aurat,dah boleh dah perlahan-lahan cuba biasakan diri dengan hijab yang menutupi aurat.sebelum ni peminat setia black metal,boleh lah usaha banyakkan dengar alunan al-Quran.Sebelum ni asyik keluar masuk hotel,boleh lah stay dekat rumah je..

supaya nanti,bila Syaitan laknatullah ambil MC..diri kita akan terbiasa dengan habit yang bagus.

Alhamdulillah setakat ni masih hidup lagi.masih sihat walaupun ada sedikit difficulty in breathing..tapi tu bukannya masalah besar kan?

Ramadhan ni sangat istimewa.sebab dia datang hanya setahun sekali.dia bawak lailatul qadar bersama dimana lailatul qadar ini sangat-sangat bermakna dan lebih baik dari seribu bulan.Ramadhan ini,bulan berkat .bulan muhasabah diri.bulan yang dirahmati Allah SWT.Ramadhan ini adalah bulan yang sesuai untuk berhijrah.kenapa?kerana dalam bulan ini,syaitan cuti .ambik mc..pada masa ini lah,yang kita perlu lawan hanyalah nafsu diri sendiri..

disini,sebagai persediaan ramadhan yang bakal menjelang..saya selitkan mutabaah amal.moga bermanfaat.

nikmati setiap nafas yang anda hirup.itu mungkin yang terakhir :)

salam sya'ban dan salam hijrah.

moga esok lebih baik dari semalam.Amin ya Rabb al amin.

p/s : you don't need to wait ramadhan to become better.start it earlier..

bismillahirahmanirrahim.
(dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani)



Do you ever feel like a plastic bagDrifting through the wind, wanting to start again?Do you ever feel, feel so paper thinLike a house of cards, one blow from caving in?
Do you ever feel already buried deep?Six feet under screams, but no one seems to hear a thingDo you know that there's still a chance for you'Cause there's a spark in you?
You just gotta ignite the light and let it shineJust own the night like the 4th of July
'Cause baby, you're a fireworkCome on, show 'em what you're worthMake 'em go, oh, oh, ohAs you shoot across the sky
Baby, you're a fireworkCome on, let your colors burstMake 'em go, oh, oh, ohYou're gonna leave 'em falling down
You don't have to feel like a waste of spaceYou're original, cannot be replacedIf you only knew what the future holdsAfter a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closedSo you could open one that leads you to the perfect roadLike a lightning bolt, your heart will blowAnd when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light and let it shineJust own the night like the 4th of July
'Cause baby you're a fireworkCome on, show 'em what you're worthMake 'em go, oh, oh, ohAs you shoot across the sky
Baby, you're a fireworkCome on, let your colors burstMake 'em go, oh, oh, ohYou're gonna leave 'em falling down
Boom, boom, boomEven brighter than the moon, moon, moonIt's always been inside of you, you, youAnd now it's time to let it through

Be better

Bismillahirahmanirrahim.

(Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani)

Assalamualaikum Wbt.

I did a little mistake that ruin my mood for few times whenever I remember the incident.

I delete my al-Quran android.because of soooooo lazy to download all of the surah audio and try to find Quran that already complete with audio .It is my bad,because after that I can't find any of Al-Quran android like that.then,I install the other Quran android and of course,I got to download the audio.and I never ever whine again about that because,this one doesn't have translation.

Astaghfirullah al adzim.

redha je lah.

soldier of Allah SWT.

some said I'm not alim enough to write post like konon-konon budak baik.but,I think it is good for me to write like this.maybe I'm not alim enough but I'm trying to be better.

Maybe astaghfirullah make me looks like tak sepadan with my appearance but f*** is a bad words that I want to avoid.

I don't need anyone permission to be better.

other thing.

You..yes you.respect others than you'll be respected.and I?it doesn't matter for me.I don't want to care if Amal said kau b*** again.or aqil choose other girl or yasmin take picts with my other half..they just unimportant things that Allah SWT gives to me.well,i don't care pun.

sometimes,ignorance is bliss.

and,it is not me who get hurt again.and don't worry babies,Islam doesn't have karma in it.

be happy.

p/s : hangout with other half.I'm thinking if I die,what would happen to my sygs esp my family.hmm hopes that I could change to be lot better than now.If I die earlier than all my sygs,I want to wait them in Jannah.Amin ya Rabb al amin.

Fall in love with..

Bismillahirahmanirrahim.
(Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani)

Assalamualaikum WBT .hi :)

hari ni,mari bicara tentang cinta.saya jatuh cinta kepada Rasulullah SAW setelah tertarik dengan cerita baju merah yang dipakai baginda :D saya suka lelaki handsome,Rasulullah SAW lah orangnya.saya suka lelaki cool,Rasulullah SAW jugak yang cool,saya suka lelaki macho..dan DIA yang memakai baju merah itu sangat macho ^^

saya membaca satu buku yang membuatkan saya ingin jatuh cinta berkali-kali dan harapnya,hari ini bukan yang terakhir.Sebagai manusia,saya punyai kelemahan.sekali jatuh cinta dan insaf,tapi kalau tak dijaga..cinta itu akan hilang.lenyap dimamah waktu.

saya petik kata-kata dari buku hasil nukilan ,ustaz sharhan safie,mohammad uzair.

"Rasulullah SAW menghulur cinta bukan untuk dibalas tapi untuk diteladani.Meneladani cinta Baginda SAW membawa bahagia hingga ke syurga"

Apa yang menyentuh hati saya hari ini?cuma satu petikan .yang buat saya jatuh hati,limpa,jantung,paru-paru dan segalanya..hanya untuk Dia.

Diriwayatkan bahawa pada suatu hari Baginda bersabda yang maksudnya, "Bertuahlah sesiapa yang melihatku dan beriman padaku"
Mendengar sabda ini mungkin membuatkan kita sebagai umat yang datang kemudian hari berasa sedih dan terkilan kerana tidak turut terangkum dalam sabda itu.Tetapi alangkah terhiburnya hati apabila mendengar Rasulullah SAW menyambung lagi sabdanya dengan bersemangat,
"Bertuahlah,Bertuahlah dan bertuahlah,sesiapa yang tidak melihatku dan beriman kepadaku"

ayuh.sama-sama imarahkan hari dengan cinta pada rasul dan Allah.
sama-sama jatuh cinta dengan Allah dan rasul.
sama-sama berusaha untuk kembali ke landasan yang betul.

InsyaAllah akan diberkati Allah SWT.

yang menulis tidaklah sempurna kerana tidak terlepas dari hambatan nafsu dunia,
yang membaca tidaklah kekurangan kerana tiap seseorang punya kelemahan.

apa yang penting,

"Islam bukanlah tentang aku lebih baik daripada kamu tetapi Islam adalah tentang biar aku tunjukkan apa yang lebih baik untuk kamu"

May Allah bless us .Amin ya Rabb alamin .

Problem ?hehe . no lah

Bismillahirahmanirrahim.
(Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani)

Assalamualaikum WBT :)

I on my twitter,facebook,tagged and tumblr.
the first thing I see is someone that tweet about cats,ehh i think it's  kittens.he or she,(unidentified) give korean names to the kittens ^_^ quite adorable kan ?hihi but I'm not the korean fan and that means I got other perception.it is quite annoying to call yr cats or pets with those korean names .Put the name as SRK,I might like it .haha

second,yesterday I have meet 3 nyah ,which is asasian guys.fyi,I got some alergic with them .hearing they said "nok,kita dok sini lah" and with make up on the face,I'm sorry to say .rasa macam nak lempang laju-laju je muka jambu kau tu.because of I'm a straight sexual orientation ,I hate to see you being like that and don't forget,kau tu jantan.bukannya betina .do remember~

third,It happens I hv to drop the Kinesiology and take it on sem 5.who cares anymore ?I don't want to give it a f**k.

lastly,
It is you who change me .don't worries .I'm not killing others,I just killing myself .

Kalau sedih,serulah DIA .

Bismillahirahmanirrahim
(Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani)

Assalamualaikum wbt and hi ;)

’Katakanlah (wahai Muhammad): Serulah nama “Allah” atau nama “Ar-Rahman” ‘ [al-Isra’ 17:110].

random post after random things that happen to me.sometimes,the tears just come down as I raise my hand to pray.kalau zaman budak-budak dulu,nak mengumpat pun boleh mengumpat dengan tuhan."Ya Allah kenapalah minah tuuu perasan gile?ishh ishh rasa menyampah mata tengok.blaa blaa bla" .muahaha now,bila hati kata "ohh shit.macam lah dia tu lebih baek sangat.nak show off lettewww~"

cepat-cepat istighfar dan husnudzhon (bersangka baek) "Islam bukan tentang aku adalah lebih sempurna daripada kau,tapi Islam adalah tentang biar aku tunjukkan apa yang baik untuk kau"

bila seseorang itu bercerita ,contohnya "semalam enn,aku dah beli tudung labuh.nanti aku nak start pakai tudung labuh" atau "aku dah pakai tudung labuh.alim kan aku?haha".itu,tak semestinya mereka nak show off yang mereka lebih baik atau apa-apa.cuma husnudzhon okay.supaya kita tidak sakit hati,dan tidak kembali menyakitkan hati orang lain.InsyaAllah.

sometimes it just enough to have Allah SWT.

p/s ; happy sya'ban,keep changing towards better,moving forward,be happy and do grateful ^^

The little changes

Bismillahirahmanirrrahim.

Assalamualaikum WBT .

credits to : Spreadsalam.com

hi ;) today is a very very good day I guess.I went to class wearing a baju kurung and tudung labuh.of course it is not tudung bulat yang selalu dipakai oleh saya dahulu .

and,my girlfriends are sooooooo excited ab that.haha obviously they're grateful enough for my little changes.Well,what to do when I am big enough to do my own decision.

I talk to my other half ab something that happen between us.and,we couldn't decide anything.tergantung sampai di bibir sahaja.dan..terus hilang.

sayang,I want to be yours..but .

p/s : sometimes,I fed up with him.but in other hand,I need him.till then,may Allah SWT bless us.

au revoir.

Cerita gembira ;)

Bismillahirahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum n hi love .

baru pulang ke Palam. Siyes, malas nak balik sini. Esok ada presentation lagik T.T sadis je rasa .. Esok ada neurology,tajuk : Sensory and motor pathway. yang ni xdelah kena present ke apa.. tapi kena baca notes .haiyaaa -..-" ada Clinical Condition, presentation about hyperthyroidism and Cushing's Syndrome. and lastly ,CTU ataupun nama manjanya pendidikan Islam. hehe yang ni ,I loike! Ustaz saya best and rocks :D

2 days off with my close friend, raja memang agak fun :DDDD haha the feeling still unchanged. at least :') saya sedih plus syahdu. kawan saya yang cantik,skema dan baek ni dah ada pakwe ..hehe rasa dia macam you lost some parts in her but ..ada jugak yang stay. mungkin dulu dia pure and innocent. unlike me yang dah couple berpuluh kali tapi tak pernah nak kekal.. mungkin dia akan stay pure macam tu .who knows ? Allah the almighty knows better.

cume kelmarin,rasa a bit lost :')
mungkin tak boleh terima fact yang dia dah ada boyfie atau mungkin saya ni tak suka share dengan orang laen.macam bila saya merajuk sebab Raja n sue x layan saya bercakap .haha ye ye .saya ni unpredictable tahap kegedikan and tahap ngadengade taek kuda.

dan saya bukan lesbian :D

2 days ni,nothing pun yang luar biasa .
1st days, kami tengok wayang dan makan. makan. makan dan shopping <3 hihi sukaaaaaaaaaaa sangat dekat satu kasut ni. but takde size saya.so, goodbye shoes. and then tidur hotel (??) ehh motel kot .err rumah tumpangan ?ekeke..
2nd days, g check out .then, g memanah.hihi <3 saya da jadi panah arjuna .weeeeeeeeeeeee~~~ love love love sangat menatang neh ;) bukan Rasulullah SAW pun galakkan umatumat baginda supaya belajar memanah dan menunggang kuda kan ? bukan macam my other half,sekejap sekejap ajak gi ice skating .bosan .asyik nak jatuh je ..wuuuuu~ T.T saya imbalance .harap maklum .

2nd days, tengok wayang lagik .cite brave 3D. hehe saya nanges masa tengk ctew tu .nasib baik orang laen tak perasan .buat maluu jew~ ;) after that, terus pecut balik Palam .hehe

lastly,

sila pilih bahagia.

keep smiling. keep growing. keep moving forward.
being positive is my choice and I'll always be strong and be happy :D

may Allah SWT bless our days.Amin ya Rabbalamin.

au revoir.

Palam is awesome ;p err silap!hee

ahhhh stupid !all hail Melor~

demdemdem!!!!
maaflah.otak saya sedikit serabut.haiyaaa masalah betol sobs sobs.

semalam,mak dah warning "asyik keluar je.bila mau study betulbetul ?"
alahai mak ku syggggg~keluar hari minggu.study hari-hari sampai malam aku study T.T itu pun nak marah .wuuuuuuuu~sedih ah macam ni.terus hilang rasa homesick na larikk balik rumah tu.rela aku dok sini .

what had I done to myself ?
bajet betol ayat.menyampah *lempang laju-laju* nak keluar g sambut birthday je pun.dengan perempuan pulak tu ..mamamia~~sejak bila mak aku anti-pompuan neh ?hailaaa~bila kata na balik rumah,dia kata ta payah.bila kata nak keluar,dia kata tak boleh .mak syg intan payung,nanti saya mati kebosanan disini .ptuiiihhh ,mana de orang kat Palam penah mati macam tu .

nak siapkan presentation sebab isnin nanti dah present .would be off from Palam for two days :)

p/s : May Allah bless our days and Alhamdulillah for the CR info ^^

To HIM i rely on.

Bismillahirahmanirrahim.

Assalamualaikum WBT n hi .

this morning,I am totally hoping last night was a nightmare but now,I realize I have to face the truth.For the last time I check my android is one minute ago for the 38 times.it is not I don't want to be better.but to start it,sooooo hard..a girl make decision to break up to grow up better..and she do take time to be strong enough and slowly give up on the love that she carried for 1 and a half year.

I did the first step.to break the relationship and Allah SWT open my heart to think about the future.What would be if he becomes my hubby?He will always like that.because,I know him..He kept trying to change but it didn't happen to become true.and,I won't just sit here just to worry about my future.

yes,I am disappointed .

but,I know enough how strong I could be .I used to be strong and I'll be stronger.there's a time that I would give up on this thing.and,when the times come,I could count on Allah SWT to protect me.I trust that HE won't walk away from me..

okay.fullstop.

my friend,raja was having her 19 birthday :) so,I think that I would hang out with her at TS to celebrate her birthday.hehe what is more important than a friend kan ?

and,

my beloved sue,is a lucky person.She got SPA :D I am jealous of her but now,hehe feels happy ^^ Allah SWT knows better and to HIM I rely on.May Allah bless her~

p/s : tonight,Fatimah Syarha is coming to Palam.there's an event called "mencari kawan sejati" .then,it might be good for me.yeahh..after all,Allah SWT do want to see me change.I bet that is true.why ?because HE love me ^__________^

p/s/s : true love is a love where you put Allah SWT at the first place :) be strong~

CR topics

Bismillahirahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum n hi :)

topik malam ni : hyperthyroidism

hyperthyroidism a.k.a overactive thyroid occurs when the thyroid gland makes too much thyroid hormones.and to be noted ,thyroid gland is important organ of the endocrine system (tempat produce hormon-hormon dalam badan manusia ler) and located in front of the neck,just below the voice box.

thyroid gland produce 2 hormones which is, thyroxine (T4) and triiodothyronine (T3).the hormones is used to control the way of every cells in the body uses energy.

this disease occurs when the thyroid releases too much of it hormones over a acute (short) or chronic (long) period of time.

punca slash penyebab slash causes :

• getting too much iodine 
• graves diseases (ni penyakit apa entah but it worsen the condition of the hyperthyroidism)
• inflammation (thyroiditis) due to viral infections
• taking large amounts of thyroid hormones
• ovaries slash testes tumors

Symptoms :

• difficulty concentrating (ohh saya ada ni -.-" concentrate je rasa macam na tido .hehe)
• fatigue
• frequent bowel movt.
• Goiter (thyroid gland yang membesar..err yang jelas kelihatan)
• heat intolerance
• increase appetite
• increase sweating
• nervousness (everyday.hailaaaa ..masalah betol)
• weight loss (rarely weight gain)

for the treatment,there's only three ways. first, take anti-hydroid  medications. 2nd, radioactive iodine. 3rd, surgery. for the 2nd and 3rd choice, you must take thyroid hormone replacement pills for the rest of your life.

so,take care of your thyroid glands :)

p/s : I got many diseases to read and I got this one for my presentation. and what make it a disaster, I can't recall the last semester topic. Ohh now I know the hikmah for failing two papers. well, my friend cry out when I said I carry 25 credit hours for this semester. yes I know,but still I want to make a move.It is no use to postpone.

p/s/s : ada satu topik lagi, cushing's syndrome .it can be save for the next time.weeeeeeeeeeee~

May Allah bless us.

till then,

au revoir ^___^

Dari awak untuk saya :')

Bismillahirahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum and hi~

deep breath ;') permohonan supaya diri ditenangkan telah dihantar kepada Tuhan sekalian alam.Ini hadiah,istimewa ditujukan kepada saya.Ini hadiah,yang ta pernah lagi orang bagi.Ini kali pertama,n for sure,it for the last.

"Dalam hidup kadang-kadang kita menyesal..bila dah kena,baru menyesal..kdg2,dah menyesal,tp buat lagi kesilapan yang sama..awak selalu sedih,tapi kalau awak perasan,awak sedih sebab awak selalu buat kesilapan yang sama..dan awak susah sangat nak ambik iktibar dari apa yang berlaku..kita,dulu kita ingat takpe.kita ada nak tolong kalau awak buat kesilapan yang sama lagi..Tak siap kerja rumah BEL?takpe,kita boleh tolong siapkan..duit takde?kita nak bagi..Malas nak buat surat and faks?kita boleh tolong buat..B,kita nak tolong buat semua tu..setiap perkara dalam hidup awak kalau boleh kita nak tolong..Kalau boleh biar kita mengandung bukan awak..tapi,tak semua benda kita boleh buat untuk awak..Kita tak boleh studykan untuk awak.apa yang kita boleh buat?kurangkan mesej dengan awak masa kelas.sekurang-kurangnya awak boleh fokus..bukan mudah untuk kita kurangkan,kadang-kadang kalau awak mesej ,kita mesti balas,n kalau awak jawab okay je pun,kita faham sebab awak tengah kelas atau tengah busy..kita takde niat nak mengungkit tapi kita rasa kita kena bagitau untuk buat awak sedar..awak pernah sedih sebab pa takde duit untuk bayar bil,tapi awak beli makanan mahal-mahal dan awak tak habis makan bagaikan hidup awak selama ni sentiasa senang..itu yang kita nak maksudkan,dan bukan kita mengungkit sebab kita tangkai jering..kita harap awak faham..awak taknak dimarahi,kita faham tu,tapi kali ni awak perlu dimarahi..kita harap awak boleh bangun dan sedar"

mesej ni panjang,dan ditukar pada multimedia.saya download ni semalam tapi airmata tu dari semalam hingga hari ni taknak kering.

deep.deep.deep breath~apply semua breathing yang lect ajar.

awak menaip mesej melulu.kelmarin,saya contact awak pada waktu rehat~

boleh saya tanya?siapa yang ajar awak mesej tak pakai otak ?awak selalu buat dulu baru fikir.awak selalu macam tu.saya bukan benda yang awak boleh buat eksperimentasi,saya manusia.

awak boleh pergi mampos.

pesanan penaja : tak payah lah nak nasihat sangat kalau tak tahu cara.buat lembut-lembut suda.aku bukannya jiwa jantan yang egois yang kau boleh ajak bertumbuk~

A little morning wish

Bismillahirahmanirrahim.
Assalamualaikum n hi.

If you wanna be happy,then be - Leo Tolstoy

hey,do grateful okay.and,I tried :')
start yr day with smile ^______________________^

• au revoir

Be thoughtful okay.

Bismillahirahmanirrahim.

Assalamualaikum WBT n salut~

Now and then I think of the times you screwed me over,

but had me believing it always something that I'd done

I don't wanna live that way

Reading into every words you say.

mencuri masa sebenarnya .esok ada kuiz dan Pn. Fadia nak tengok notes.saya memang hebakk lah kalau dapat buat dua sekaligus.saya ada masalah dengan BEL.biasanya takde,tapi kali ni ada.I'm part of boys group T.T masalah sebenarnya..err saya tak pernah berbual bicara semesra alam pun dengan mereka.boleh tak,tamo masuk kelas ?homaii homaii~esok BEL pagi-pagi buta lagi.

p/s : If you ask me how I'm doing,I'll just say that I'm doing fine.

au revoir.

1st thought

Bismillahirahmanirrahim.

Assalamualaikum Wbt.

I want to remind myself about Leo Tolstoy,

If you wanna be happy,then be.

*pembakar inspirasi.weeeeeee~*

err maybe I should tell you that this is my daily online diary.please don't be irritated if I write some rubbish here :D

p/s : till then,may Allah SWT bless all of us.au revoir :D