cancer

Happiness aint a permanent thing.

Tbh, day by day I'm feeling better in healing environment but for one sec, theres always someone, who destroy it. who could stir up my inner peace. And I'm back at the starting point which "I'm a failure miserable ugly woman" phase. No matter how many effort I spent, I end up gaining the same amount of happiness, the same cycle occur. I wonder... but people are cancerous thing. they are cancer. cancer are bad & should be thrown out...

cut off the cancer might be hard & risky but it can save the patient. 

In order to gain something, i think we need to lose something. thats the rational thinking... 

Random

I think I get addicted to Korea again even not affectionate in other people eyes & my ability of staying up just .. gone? haha I'm no longer a fan of spending night time for internet right after I said to Bella "takpe. I dont need cable because yelh, I guna internet burung hantu" I'm.. fucked.. up?

Yesterday is a bliss. Went out with sisters ^^ When you are hanging out with girls, I guess more laughter and talks because my jaws feel sore. Apparently the none existence of cinema give us more quality time, well we catch up with each other.

I'm goin' back to Palam & hopefully, nothing bad happen. May Allah keep my family away from danger, Ameen. Let's meet again all those annoying but I don't care people there :p

p/s : need to work my ass off. Cannot get ANC anymore so I should give mum something .. unforgettable with those grades. Pray for me duhh.

p/s/s : I'm a 2nd year student rn & next year will be my last year. yeah!