It's 4.06 am
Can't I just whine here? My live sucks. It really is.. The only positive thing is the semester break and I'm at home. Before this I really try to know myself better and try to love the real me. But with every layer of truth showing up in front of my eyes, I ahte myself even more. It's hard to survive in this cruel reality (ironically God show his mercy everyday) and still I can't..
I had lots of argument with my boyfriend and apparently he hate it when I ask for things or show affections and crave for something. I don't know what is wrong with that. I'm not even force him to buy all things??? I decide to pull over from that lane and I refrain myself from being too lenient and generous with him. And he keep saying "I nak everything the same as before the argument." I said "okay. let's forget about it and we'll act like nothing happened." .... That is too comfortable for him right?
It's the fifth year and I don't know him anymore. Idk if this relationship will eventually lead us to something or will just end in a matter of time.
Ah I at loss of words.
to be continued..
Can't I just whine here? My live sucks. It really is.. The only positive thing is the semester break and I'm at home. Before this I really try to know myself better and try to love the real me. But with every layer of truth showing up in front of my eyes, I ahte myself even more. It's hard to survive in this cruel reality (ironically God show his mercy everyday) and still I can't..
I had lots of argument with my boyfriend and apparently he hate it when I ask for things or show affections and crave for something. I don't know what is wrong with that. I'm not even force him to buy all things??? I decide to pull over from that lane and I refrain myself from being too lenient and generous with him. And he keep saying "I nak everything the same as before the argument." I said "okay. let's forget about it and we'll act like nothing happened." .... That is too comfortable for him right?
It's the fifth year and I don't know him anymore. Idk if this relationship will eventually lead us to something or will just end in a matter of time.
Ah I at loss of words.
to be continued..
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