Decision

Sometimes we think too much to choose which one have the least risk. We think and think while He make a gesture, asking us to stay closer to Him. Almost a year living in this somewhat depressing live makes me a pessimist. I've got an offer from UMK and the other one is from UiTM. It took me few days to decide and give me headache. The question of "Can I really learn this and score this" keep haunting my mind. If you know me, I'm not as bright as you. Not a target student in my primary school and my secondary school got too many clever people and left me behind. I'm in the top ten of the bottom rank. I'm still impressed with my ability to pass the add math, bio, physic and chem in SPM. It just a matter of luck.

Some people you meet in live got their own specialty but I got none. I'm bad in bahasa, had to go tutor for English, bad in science subjects and I failed my math every sem in MRSM. I forget things and no good in memorizing. I'm a loser.

I choose to go back to Puncak Alam. I guess there's no other choice. After hearing some advice and taking them.. I guess UiTM is the best thing to go for. UMK feels more home-y but the course need me to learn the physic. they said it's the SPM standard but you know, I've got C for my SPM. How to survive that... After all of those countless failure in the past, I don't want to take a risky course.

It had been almost a year of praying, countless teardrop, every gloomy day and awesome people who walk in and out. Reality really hits hard and losing in my own world.. I guess it makes me really fragile. but God heard my pray and God give me another chance.

I hope things will be okay.

p/s : I'm not continuing physiotherapy course.