random

what would you do if you can have one precious thing but you need to let go the other things?

Surely live isn't fair but we can decide it by ourselves. Firstly, hi there. I survive throughout the 2nd sem. I went on a short sweet dates with bae and we celebrate our 5th year of being together, talk about future, talk about the past, stalking people on twitter and instagram together and the list goes on, yada yada!! The most remarkable conversation is bae's fear about the uncertainty of the future. I'm not in his shoes so I let him ramble about his fear and listen it out. I guess being a good listener can ease people heart, well I hope bae feel relieved after talking about that.

For this semester, I only take about 17 credits hour and the carry marks look promising. If only I work hard for the final paper, I'm sure I can pull this out. Not to mention my 2nd test gives quite a damage to my carry marks so I really think, I need to double up my effort even just to pass. Hopefully we can maintain the cgpa and try to ask for a scholarship. pray hard for that.

before this I always think to write a post, a throwback of the past event that I went to in this second semester which is I kick off with my sweet escape to Seremban - Malacca - Puncak Alam. because semester 2 is such a fun and full with excitement semester for me perhaps i'll write it when I'm stressing about the final. 

p.s.: watch star wars and I don't like it.

p.s.s: watch inside out and I don't like it.

p.s.s.s: watch movies and no, I don't like 'em

about the first question.. well as for me, I think I'm better off without that precious things. I'm always be ungrateful when I get all what I want and that's what I want to avoid so desperately..

Believe it or not but I survive throughout the semester.

Bae is coming home.

And I decide to get a short escape before the final kick off.

p/s: you know how much I love you

amidst of confusion

The eighth week of Semester 2 seems quite challenging. I have 2 hospital visits for my courses assignment and 1 entrepreneurship activity to be done. and the ninth week will be the mid term break, we just have 5 weeks after that before our final exam. how stuffy is that? just thinking about that never ending assignments tests make me nauseous..I really wanna throw up.. maybe it's an after effect of eating too many McD last night.

I'm targeting for dean list, and the highest one. it's quite embarrassing to write here but big dream aint a sin. I'm going for 4.0 but with arabic and entrepreneurship perhaps a 3.8 if I'm lucky enough

that two subjects are nightmare for me. As scary as watching the ring for the first time esp when the ghost.. okay I need to stop doing throwback for unnecessary memory -.-

I need to study for my test 1.

bye mate ^^

It's a reminder

I feel confuse and I lose my steadiness.

I start pretty fast but now

I'm losing the pace.

Idk if I can catch up with the other but it seems like I'm the only one who stray from the track.

It's funny how God flip the table in short period of time thus give you a reminder how powerful He is. 

I'm abit shock but the only reason why God give me a reminder because I did something wrong

maybe I miss something and that makes Him angry.

I love how God show His mercy towards me. 

It's a soft reminder compared to the previous one.

I'm going home tomorrow and let's try to rationalize and plant optimist characteristic inside me. 

also the competitive side.

till then, I shall put my heart at ease.

until I settle everything and things fall into places.

Happy eidul adha everyone.

much love from me ^^

Semester 2

My examination result was okay, not the highest in our batch but hm I'm glad I make it happen. It's a proof that I'm not only saying that without trying and I promise to give my best for this semester :)

I didn't get college so I end up renting a flat with 3 ex-batch mates from Physiotherapy and the other 2 batch mates from Health Admin. I guess flat thingy is going well too since the owner who I met through Mudah.my didn't cheat on me.

Consume Perla Dust but I'm no Snow White yet. haha I'm getting tanner and Puncak Alam sucks. Haze everyday, 24/7 from Palam to Klang. they got no difference and my antibody had been weaken than before. I'll get migraine if I wake up too early or too late. Curse you Melor for not taking care of your health, perhaps I need some vita C and let it do the magic.

I have been staying here for a week and still didn't learn anything as people keep skipping their first week classes (both of students and lecturers) and that's not my fault. 

Eidul Adha will be taking place at 24 hb and yeay, tiket bas balik kelantan habis. haha double the curse for clumsiness, 

And for one of my ex-best friend that actually walk away from me, you sucks. and your wife too. thank you.

And try to not worry too much Melor.

everything are going to be okay 

and they'll fall into places when the time comes.

It will. 

I promise you.

Week 13

Kadang-kadang aku rasa aku tipu diri sendiri 

Bila aku rasa sesuatu subjek tu senang tapi dalam final aku tak mampu jawab. 

Bila aku sebenarnya dah besar tapi masih berfikiran macam budak-budak.

Bila aku fikir lari akan selesaikan semua masalah.

Bila aku sedih terkenangkan benda yang lepas sedangkan perjalanan hidup aku tak sesusah orang lain.

Bila bae kata aku macam-macam sedangkan aku rasa aku dah laksanakan tugas aku dengan baik.

Aku rasa tertipu dengan sikap hipokrit aku.

Mungkin bukan orang lain yang bermasalah, tapi aku. cuma aku.

Rindu

there are two specific songs that make me feels like I'm in Ramadhan :

1. Lukisan Alam
2. Fatamorgana

One ritual that makes me feel like I'm in Eidul Fitr:

Otp while stargazing

You know how lonely it is when you only have your own family and end up doing nothing in malam raya. It hv been like that for years since Mek death. It's okay, I like my night like that. lol,

I guess some little things brought up too many memories. 

Semester One.

Sometime it feels like I've been here for ages but sometime it seems like time flies too fast. Wrapping up the whole sem into one word : unpredictable. My classmates are awesome, like hey they graduate with first class ya know and here I am with my 2.6 CGPA. Its really makes me feel like a fool since they know everything and I'm abit loading in understanding all of those subjects. After one sem of studying health administration, I guess teachers word that "you have to understand in order to answer the question" and "studying isn't only for the sake of examination" cannot be applied when you choose administration as your path. Most of the subjects need you to memorize like 99% of 'em. Some of the lecturer will deducts your mark for creating your own sentences. And they say they want to produce an innovative, critical thinker and creative student. That's hilarious as fuck. ops. 

After struggling for months, I finally found an effective way to help me in memorizing. 

• Read the same topic, repeatedly, for about 10 times. And I swear you'll remember them as smooth as you remember your own bios.

• Early revision could save you from failure. 

• Aim high. There is this one person  who tell me, "trust me. If you aim to get an A+, you will get at least A-" Of course it wouldn't make any difference if you had no effort.

and there are so many ways out there that you can try and see if it works well with you. I only have 2 more paper to go and I'll go back to Kelantan for 2 months since we're having our sem break after eid.

Hm. I wish people can accept me the way I am, because I'm too far from perfection. Perhaps thing will get better when we know and study more about each other. I wish I can forget all my responsibilities so that I can live without feeling guilty toward others..

It's tiring. To live like this.

I miss you

I keep seeing you in my dream
and it feels real.
Every time I wake up and try to reach you,
My heart shattered into pieces when it's only a dream.

It's hard when I received something but I have to return in back.
It's hard to watch you walk away.

It feels hurt eventho I know it's only for some period of time before we ended up together.

I don't know why but I miss your warm body,
your soft touch,'
your bright eyes..

perhaps I'm being like this because I'm longing for you...

It's okay, It's love.

A string

Between a man and a woman,
There is a string attached to them.

Woman:

From the first time I meet you, I carved your name in my heart.
The first time I see you, I fall for you.
For each step I take, I pray for courage to touch your heart.
Smoothly, our relationship went smooth until one day..

A love confession.

Man:

"Perhaps we're not meant for each other. This is absurd."
I only can let out an awkward laugh, but it seems like she is fine with it.
Her face still as bright as usual.
Her pale lips is still smiling to me.

One heart is broken.
And that's all what it takes to cut the string attached to both of them.

If the saying "what goes around comes around" is true perhaps we should avoid breaking other people heart. The pain from being rejected won't disappear in a day, it stay forever with the scar. A nasty scar..

There is one way to ease the level of pain.

Fall in love again. It doesn't matter if he reappeared right before your eyes, because the heart already forget the pain as you have someone to catch you if you fall.

It hurt. to fall alone and drown into your sadness.

The string had been cut down.
A man and a woman.
One broken heart.

I pray hard for you, for the string attach you to other man. This will be the last man when he heard out your love confession, he is more than happy to make you as his bride.

For that one man, the one and only. you'll never meet someone like her again and you'll be missing her real bad but I wish for you to feel happy and soon meet your bride to be.

Because when you cut the string,
it may take years to reattach it.

Random.

I really think that no one will likes me if they can see the real me.. This is random, after stalking someone. I guess I'm too far from perfection and got too many weaknesses that I tried to cover.

I hope you can forgive me when you realized my true colors. I hope you can see that it is hard for me too.

Little thing called love.

The first time I watch the little thing called love, it reminds me to my high school year but sadly live is not a fairytale, so I'm still as ugly as usual. Puberty didn't change me much but I get uglier annually.

I didn't watch it for the second time as for me, one time is enough since I still remember the details. I think if I watch it again and again, the love in the air feelings won't come back but as I reminiscence about it, I still can feel the magic tho.

Maybe I'm not as lucky as Nam, my crush know about my feeling for 5 years but nothing happen. But I guess, that is the meaning of puppy love. You fall for him, unknowingly you try to chase him. At the end, you got nothing and moving on. It is one sided love, what do you expect from that? I fall for him on my first sight. I am too young back then.

My high school story not as colorful as you but I guess, I'm satisfied with that. Sape hidup dia warna warni sangat?

I got a boyfie but it takes a little time to fall for him. He got the aura of aku-budak-pandai-kau-pandai? and he already fall for someone. And the whole batch knows about that except for me, that I know about it abit late when he, himself tell me and asking for help. it is quite funny but he got rejected, k I couldn't stop laughing.

It have been 4 years and few months that we know each other, and everytime I remember about us, there is tingling feeling. I love it like that :) and like you said, being different does not mean anything. Compatibility isn't rely solely on similarity right? I'm sorry for creating distance over the petty things, im too insecure kan?

Our relationship start off based on the proximity, but it isn't limited to that. I still pray for you to like my taste of music tho. Haha i know that you find it weirds but sometime, can't you just bear with it and talk about something I like? But I still like you despite all the differences ^^

Btw, good luck for your final syg!

Ps : got no ideas anymore
Pss : I can see the genting lights from here and suddenly your face keep lingering in my mind, I miss you :')

kotak hati

Tak usah kau terangkan ku tahu
Potret wajahmu di setiap penjuru
curahkan deritamu padaku
biarku rasa apa yang kau lalu

terang terang
bersama rasa sayang
ku biarkan kau terbang
terang terang
sudut kecil ku isi
untuk senyuman mu lagi

Berbaring renung kita ke bulan
lagu yang ku tulis ku nyanyikan
lagu cinta tentang kita berdua
yang kan kita kenangi hingga tiba masa

Ex best friend

A best friend, no matter how many nasty awful things he did, you can't easily replace him with other people.

An ex best friend stay in our mind because we miss his care, concern, attention and if we didn't miss him, we don't ramble his name. Deep down, we wish he will come back.

Always remember.

Always remember where you belong so it can reminds you to your goals and avoid misleading.

Works harder. It's the only way to ensure the future will be brighter than the present and the past.

Try your best and Allah Swt will do the rest.

Why you you choose to be a macai?

Because sometimes we believe on something to the extent we think we are on the right side.
Because things can go out of control.
Because backstabbing and badmouthing other people feels so great (is it?)
Because we can be abit immature like "oh pak menteri ni bodoh bla bla bla" =.= shame on you bruhh.
Because my best friend hate this certain party.
Because he's getting married and end up ignoring me. Btw, bakal pengantin lek2 ya jul.
Because that's my right to be whatever I want.

P/s : Don't feel guilty, it's killing me.

I was in the mid of writing something but nahh never mind. I don't want to post that here. It's enough with just write and delete it. You'll never get enough dose of talking about someone behind their back. It just, you'll never satisfied. 

I don't know how you can deal with it but enough is enough. No more or less than what is it now. Focusing on your study in order to create a better future is a crucial thing for now. Why would you or anyone suffering like this? Change your attitude.

Insecurity & Crushing

No, you don't just come and say, "Why it's only me suffering because of that? Why the other girl looks like not affected by that incident?"

That someone might facing her fears, her sadness and suffering quietly. In my case, I don't care. I don't forgive people easily especially the ones who mock my insecurity. You didn't know even a little bit of my life story yet you laughed and ridiculed my insecurity. You're not putting on my shoes, you're not waking up from a hard floor everyday, you're not taking care of a sick grandmother whom pee anywhere she likes everyday, you're not raised in my family yet you are laughing at my behavior? I only protect what is mine in order to keep it just for me, forever.

It is such unbelievable, why would an over-confident impudent girl like you questioning my insecurity. Oh I see.. Because you didn't know how it feel to be me.

It's okay. And that's the reason why I questioned people decision and then stop in the mid of it. Because I never know what it feels to be them.

Everyone deserve to feel happy with their decision. To feel loved even for a short period of time. To forget even for a moment the sadness that had been lingering for years. For God sake, why do you like to laugh at those weak and unsecured people?

They're fragile. When you touch them, they can break. A broken pieces is really hard to be glued. Why would you break 'em? Because they're not your friend? Or because you are always right, you cannot be wrong and lets show to the world how I break this stupid insecure girl. Is it because of that?

Why? Why would you?

Stop being so cruel will you? People have feeling, people have their own stories, sometimes people protect what they have because that is the only thing they have. People try to change their destiny and learn through the past mistakes. Stop bashing people just because they have the opposite characters of you. It's not like everyone born as bold as you, as over-confident as you, as lucky as you.

People are different.

We're different.

Stop crushing people. Karma will hit you hard and on that moment, you couldn't stop thinking. Why. Why. Why.

Did I really holding on to you?

I feel like I already grab on you but maybe my eyes play a little trick on me. Amazingly, I'm not holding on to you.
It was abit lonely in the beginning of the journey. It's not like I found someone special, no. It just in the mid of journey, you began to discover bit by bit about the bitter truth of this live. You have to go on evetho you're in pain.
Sometimes, just sometimes.. I feel like a fool, being sad over petty things. I carved a smile in the face but deep down, all of those petty things try to engulf my positivity. I'm not sure why.. Perhaps it's a way of God reminding me, that I still got Him.


I'm sorry, this is a random rant. I should end this here before I start to rant other things. Goodbye.

The past (1)

I'm so insecure in the past that I spend my nights in chatroom. And you know, chatroom is for the low esteem people and most of 'em aren't good looking. For an example, me. I'm ugly and stupid. The chatroom is a one way to make you feel worthy, being surrounded by your kind.

This is a random rant because I actually still have friends from the chatroom that still live their life like that. They still feel the insecure and worthless in the real life. But who am I to judge your life, go ahead ^^

Be yourself or create the other side of you, live your life comfortably.

P/s: this is my opinion. Not 100% correct or wrong. Thanks

Short Essay : How are you today babe?

I'm at home and I actually got too many things to rant in this blog picisan. As always, I couldn't decide which one matter and which isn't. Sitting in the living room, seeing all the things & people that I once take for granted, it makes me feel quite emotional. It have been 3 days of holiday and all I do is talking, gossiping, watching TVs, and eating. I help with cleaning but not cooking. hahh mak mentua kena redha bila dapat saya yang tak pandai masak sebab malas tolong ummi masak >..<

No. Won't rant about all of those unfinished homework and studying for test. This mid term holiday fill with love. From those who directly involve with me like family & girlfriends! I should spend some time with them in case anything happen to me. Anything unexpected. 

This is quite short but I suddenly decide to keep some of my thoughts to myself. 

P/s : I got anew fave song! ^^ 

Segalanya yang ku suka engkau ada,

Kau buat aku tersenyum saja

jatuh cinta saja

Macamlah perkara biasa

Kata-kata manis saja

Tak boleh blah    

Diverse World 1

Next week will be my sixth week of being here. I'm not going to lie that it feels abit lonely and sad particularly because I still didn't have a close friend. Degree is quite different compared to Diploma where people attend the college with their groupies. They're being racist, sexist, assabiyah and what-so-ever. And it's kinda hard to get along with them. Let's face the truth that my communication sucks and that's why I'm having a hard time in making friend. Do you ever meet someone that awkwardly attempt to converse with you, laughing all over and have this fade aura that tend to makes you ignore them? I am that someone. I have this unimportant-person-aura-that-you-do-not-even-want-to-give-me-attention. okay, now I feels the urge to write everything but no. I would not.

These five weeks of degree just went away without any activities. I couldn't find any archery club in uitm Puncak Alam and the nearest one is in Shah Alam which I'm gonna simply ignore it because I got no transportation. I do not enjoy being a loner. My earphone broke and I simply did some study quietly. The loneliness is too much, but wait until the eight week, I'm going home for my midterm break. oh yeah. BIG YEAY.

There's no much to talk except for the loneliness that drive me insane. My roomie is going home for every weekend. k dengki. I try to make myself happy with buying things that I long for, calling mum everyday, chatting with my buddies, and not to forget 'being grateful with this second chance'. But as time passed by, I'm no longer excited with that things, or excited to talk with mum because I got nothing to talk about or the new thing I learn in class except for Accounting. It's so interesting and.. oh God, I like it. I try to make my room feels as home but nothing awaits me in here. I watch movies every day and spend my time trying to play Diablo 3 which is I'm sucks in playing that. but I enjoy that game so much to give up. haha okay you can boo me now.

I spend my time mostly at my table which is a mess but I love that. I put things I love around the table so that I can see them and make myself feels comfortable and less lonely. Also work as reminder to remind me the reason I ended up here. As night come, you can see pool of stars in the dark and the city that full with lights. It's beautiful but I hate 'em. 

I'll end this here. I know this post abit weird but bear with it as I got no one to hear me out. 

p/s : let's do not talk about this anymore. If I can :)

School rant

It is the third week of studying yet it feel so long and tiring. To walk over places and didn't find classes, to register and realise we've got to drop this subject and exchange it with other subject, the blended class that I'm not even understand what the purpose is, to have great and nice lecturers and to have a spoiler one like "shut up, you're not allowed to buy your tickets in Friday" (because we've got blended class till 9.20 pm) meanwhile the other lecturers said "I understand your feeling so we make an adjustment so you can go home already in friday. big yeay" ....

Welcome back to the Student live after a year of hiatus. I'm seeing this as a stage for me to change myself. It's a second chance that I beg Allah SWT to give it to me. It's the second chance that I got, to set up my own stage, to change what I need, to look the world in other perspective and to make a closure to the previous failure. It's too much that I need to change but 3 years ain't short period. And the changing process of becoming that someone is a continuous process that I've to be istiqamah in my doing.

I meet with my junior and it seems that I just realise I don't love this course as much as I love Physiotherapy and I'm not ready to make a confession. That's probably because I still not familiar with this course. I'm sure one day I'll be proud to say that I'm a student under FBM (*shout out loud my course*)

There's alot to rant but I have no idea to convey it in words and make it less boring. whatudu.. I'm a dull person. haha

I need to sleep. My class start 8.30 am and goes all the way to 4.00 pm.

Good night and May Allah SWT bless you whoever you are, whenever you are and for whatsoever reason you end up reading this boring post. Cheer up buddy ^^

To the apple of my eyes.

"To achieve success is never an accident. It is always the result of intelligent effort"

As a student that encounter countless failure, I have my own style to boost my motivation. One of it is spending time talking to a clever person that didn't insult ur intelligence level. I chose yassin. He amaze me every time with his nerdy answer and stupid relationship target. And when I need a boost, talking to him makes myself feel better. He is my comfort-spiritual- booster-person-that-kinda-weird-actually.

I don't know how he put up with my childish act for years and still longing to be with me. Is this too lovey dovey for you? Haha.

He'll be going back to Oz tonight and I promise to myself to not being a crybaby. He go there for the future and I'm here for good. One day, we'll meet again. I hope at that time, both of us grow up alot (which I really looking forward for me to be abit taller and for you to be as skinny as the first time we met)

I wish you all the best on your final year. Be one of the best. And worry not, everything are going to turn out great. Your thesis, your life, your study. I pray hard for you to be a shining star, to light up the sky when the sun goes down. K macam ayat apetah dah tu..

This is an appreciation post for the one and only, that stand by my side through ups and downs and still being my strong supporter till now. For you, who actually did a good job in giving me the reason to live on. Giving me something to treasure and actually feel loved.

I know this post is abit cheesy but my point is to thank you for all you did and I'm looking forward to see how our future gonna be.

I'll wait for you :)

Notes

Allah - there is no deity except Him, the Ever-Living, the Sustainer of [all] existence. Neither drowsiness overtakes Him nor sleep. To Him belongs whatever is in the heavens and whatever is on the earth. Who is it that can intercede with Him except by His permission? He knows what is [presently] before them and what will be after them, and they encompass not a thing of His knowledge except for what He wills. His Kursi extends over the heavens and the earth, and their preservation tires Him not. And He is the Most High, the Most Great.

2:255




P/s : Chin up and spread the smile ^^

Her

I don't think there is real people reading this crap and that's the reason why I write my real thought. I meet Mai today. She looks healthy, happy and keep joking around but I still can't forget how I break my promise to keep the secret stay as a secret. Ah dasar mulut tempayan.

I meet her today.

And I don't screw up anything. It just went well. Thank God. Now I just need a little bit of rest ^^

Lost #2

Nak merungut,
Nak mengungkit,
Tapi bila difikir balik..

Bersyukur boleh tak bodoh?

P/s : we're on the same ship but in the different cabin. U might get the emergency boat but I only get the life jacket.. Perhaps we have to stop playing victim.

Lost #1

I feel lost.
My plan is abit off track and Im not planning or willing to do a new one.
It makes me feel nervous especially when I watch other people Iive fall apart.
They are in grief but nothing can change the fact it's too late to start all over.
It feels empty.
And lost.

I wonder if I pick the wrong way.
I wonder if my plan not good enough for Him to grant.
I wonder if.. Im walking at the wrong lane.

I do talk to someone about this but both of us have no clue.

Im not sure. Ah this is pathetic.

Decision

Sometimes we think too much to choose which one have the least risk. We think and think while He make a gesture, asking us to stay closer to Him. Almost a year living in this somewhat depressing live makes me a pessimist. I've got an offer from UMK and the other one is from UiTM. It took me few days to decide and give me headache. The question of "Can I really learn this and score this" keep haunting my mind. If you know me, I'm not as bright as you. Not a target student in my primary school and my secondary school got too many clever people and left me behind. I'm in the top ten of the bottom rank. I'm still impressed with my ability to pass the add math, bio, physic and chem in SPM. It just a matter of luck.

Some people you meet in live got their own specialty but I got none. I'm bad in bahasa, had to go tutor for English, bad in science subjects and I failed my math every sem in MRSM. I forget things and no good in memorizing. I'm a loser.

I choose to go back to Puncak Alam. I guess there's no other choice. After hearing some advice and taking them.. I guess UiTM is the best thing to go for. UMK feels more home-y but the course need me to learn the physic. they said it's the SPM standard but you know, I've got C for my SPM. How to survive that... After all of those countless failure in the past, I don't want to take a risky course.

It had been almost a year of praying, countless teardrop, every gloomy day and awesome people who walk in and out. Reality really hits hard and losing in my own world.. I guess it makes me really fragile. but God heard my pray and God give me another chance.

I hope things will be okay.

p/s : I'm not continuing physiotherapy course.

heart talk.

frustrated with someone and I can't do anything. Can't say anything. because every move I make is a rebel in their eyes. Everytime she provoke me and then says "haa marah lah tu" .. You know that I'm angry and you keep provoking me, and till I get mad and you say you are joking with me. chill tahi kau..

Why do you keep doing all of those frustrating things? I CAN'T UNDERSTAND YOU AND I HATE YOU FOR BEING AN ASSHOLE.

Haih, I'd write up some pretty harsh words but nahh not going to publish it. Gila kau. Nak sangat ya tempah tiket masuk neraka. tak pasal-pasal. I just hate em all.

I've got some offers to Uni but I guess I got no mood to write about that. UiTM result will get out in 30th let's pray for the best. Lets it be far away with total stranger. I just want to be alone.

pray hard.

You are my everything.

I used to think that friends are everything but I'd change my mind when someone that I like (at the first moment) backstabbing me. It hurts like hell. Well, the past is past but lesson learnt. Friends are not my everything anymore and I'm not willing to do anything more than they give to me. I come up with second hypothesis that my lover is my everything. Without him, everything is dull. But again.. He prove that my hypothesis is rubbish. Layak ditongsampahkan saja. When I do this much for you, I hope you are willing to do this much for me but human are different. He only can talk but when I ask him to walk the talk, he can't. I come up with the third hypothesis which is I bet it's the best. Myself is the most important, is my everything, is the ones I need to care. Backstabber, friend, lover, family, they all have their own lives which is not including you 24/7. Please love yourself more and move on.

Bak kata bae, hidup dia bukannya hadap tab 24 jam dan chat dengan aku. Banyak lagi benda lain.

Love yourself more because people lied when they say you are their number one. No people can be as stupid as you who put other people at the highest place. Now they're not coming down.

P/s : This isn't a sad depressing post =.=

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