Dear 24-years-old Melor,
Do you remember how passionate you can be? Do you remember how falling in love taste like? Do you remember that moment?
The old you is a nerd. A shy nerd with ugly face and uninterested in boy. Can we simplify this and just call my old self as a loser? You fall in love with books and you fall hard in the deepest love pit. The first novel is Ombak Rindu. Used to own it for 3 times (3 diff books) but your friend keep losing that shit so you decided no more buying that. Takde rezeki. The second novel main character is Melisa and Iskandar (Melisa got that 'Brave' Merida hair you know??? Omg omg) and I totally forget the title since dont own that. Re-read that novel almost 4 times but you repeat Ombak Rimdu for almost 15 times. Hehe and the list were getting longer from there..
You used to go to SMO each time you went out for a little outing and spend almost 3 hours in there. You used to go out with Jul and he really hates it when you went into MPH. You stayed for hours in there. You used to go to library during recess because for you that is a magical place. It have everything you likes, the books. The magnificient book. From story book to Kamus Dewan dan Pustaka.. you know all the arrangement and you adore them so much. A place where everything is calm and things fall into places. Nothing can beat that place. Nothing.
As you grow up, your sister start to be a crazy-fanatic-malay-novels-admirer. She buy a lot of malay novels that sometime, you guys buy the same book. Few of your collections have 2 copy After that, you turn yourself into English literature. It was harder to focus, to feel fun and to relate .. but you endure it all. A thin english literature took almost 2 weeks.. and as time passed by, you start to neglect them.. both of the malay & english literature. Now, you hardly read. You dont even bother to read a thin magazine or newspaper.
Dear Melor,
Do you remember when mum scold you for buying too many books and you still go for it because a scolding won't effect you? Do you remember how excited you are, hugging your books all the time during your way home? Do you remember how you learn to use bahasa properly using those books?
Do you remember? All those feeling. How enthusiastic and passionate you were..
You change a lot and you are not socially awkward now. You have more friends than before and you smile more often. You change. But..
Dear Melor,
These changes are good. But never forget who you really are and what's your passion. Focus more in rebuilding yourself rather than trying to achieve the society standard. Being you is never a crime.
Cheers to that pure little girl who spend most of her time in library just to read books while looking at the hills and trees.
