Short Essay : How are you today babe?

I'm at home and I actually got too many things to rant in this blog picisan. As always, I couldn't decide which one matter and which isn't. Sitting in the living room, seeing all the things & people that I once take for granted, it makes me feel quite emotional. It have been 3 days of holiday and all I do is talking, gossiping, watching TVs, and eating. I help with cleaning but not cooking. hahh mak mentua kena redha bila dapat saya yang tak pandai masak sebab malas tolong ummi masak >..<

No. Won't rant about all of those unfinished homework and studying for test. This mid term holiday fill with love. From those who directly involve with me like family & girlfriends! I should spend some time with them in case anything happen to me. Anything unexpected. 

This is quite short but I suddenly decide to keep some of my thoughts to myself. 

P/s : I got anew fave song! ^^ 

Segalanya yang ku suka engkau ada,

Kau buat aku tersenyum saja

jatuh cinta saja

Macamlah perkara biasa

Kata-kata manis saja

Tak boleh blah    

Diverse World 1

Next week will be my sixth week of being here. I'm not going to lie that it feels abit lonely and sad particularly because I still didn't have a close friend. Degree is quite different compared to Diploma where people attend the college with their groupies. They're being racist, sexist, assabiyah and what-so-ever. And it's kinda hard to get along with them. Let's face the truth that my communication sucks and that's why I'm having a hard time in making friend. Do you ever meet someone that awkwardly attempt to converse with you, laughing all over and have this fade aura that tend to makes you ignore them? I am that someone. I have this unimportant-person-aura-that-you-do-not-even-want-to-give-me-attention. okay, now I feels the urge to write everything but no. I would not.

These five weeks of degree just went away without any activities. I couldn't find any archery club in uitm Puncak Alam and the nearest one is in Shah Alam which I'm gonna simply ignore it because I got no transportation. I do not enjoy being a loner. My earphone broke and I simply did some study quietly. The loneliness is too much, but wait until the eight week, I'm going home for my midterm break. oh yeah. BIG YEAY.

There's no much to talk except for the loneliness that drive me insane. My roomie is going home for every weekend. k dengki. I try to make myself happy with buying things that I long for, calling mum everyday, chatting with my buddies, and not to forget 'being grateful with this second chance'. But as time passed by, I'm no longer excited with that things, or excited to talk with mum because I got nothing to talk about or the new thing I learn in class except for Accounting. It's so interesting and.. oh God, I like it. I try to make my room feels as home but nothing awaits me in here. I watch movies every day and spend my time trying to play Diablo 3 which is I'm sucks in playing that. but I enjoy that game so much to give up. haha okay you can boo me now.

I spend my time mostly at my table which is a mess but I love that. I put things I love around the table so that I can see them and make myself feels comfortable and less lonely. Also work as reminder to remind me the reason I ended up here. As night come, you can see pool of stars in the dark and the city that full with lights. It's beautiful but I hate 'em. 

I'll end this here. I know this post abit weird but bear with it as I got no one to hear me out. 

p/s : let's do not talk about this anymore. If I can :)